5.04.2004

I’m so afraid of getting Ophelia syndrome. I’m a bright, talented, decently attractive worlager (WER.layjh.er: (noun)Woman/girl/teenager). I don’t want that to change, no matter what I do. And I don’t know what I’m going to do. I know I’ve got a few years at least before I decide what I want to do with my life, or at least what I want to major in, but I’m so worried. What if I chose wrong? What if I do something and it doesn’t work out, and I end up working in a fast food restaurant for the rest of my life. I’ve got marketable skills, but the way the economy’s going, there might not be a market for the skills I’ve got by the time I’ll need to use them to support myself.

So, let’s see. General good things about me, just to boost my self confidence: I read and write very well. I got a 570 on the verbal SAT in seventh grade, and a 1050 combined in the same year. I take advanced English classes at a local community college and have since eighth grade. I’ll be taking the AP English test, qualifying me for college credit, as a sophomore. I’m taking fast-track math, in geometry as a freshman. I can speak clearly and efficiently, communicating my ideas well. I have some knowledge of HTML, mostly cosmetic stuff like fonts, links, and images, but that’s more than many people. I can type quickly and accurately. I get good grades, generally with a GPA of around 4.1. I’m rather funny and not shy of public speaking. I’m theatrically inclined, and I know more than most people would ever want to about Lord of the Rings. I support a child in Haiti, although I might have to drop her if I can’t get a job. I can play the clarinet quite well – I’m second chair as a freshman. I have friends and family who love me and will support me no matter what I do. I don’t do drugs, drink, or smoke. I read the paper nearly everyday. I listen to NPR or BBC over most other radio stations. I love history, and I’m taking the fast-track course. I know a whole lot about King Arthur and knights in general. I’ve read a lot of stuff on a variety of subjects, both fiction and non. I have interesting shirts. I make friends easily and I’m outgoing. If I have a responsibility and a deadline, I’ll get the responsibility done by the deadline. I worked on the yearbook last year, and I must say it turned out quite well. I know a lot of random knowledge, and my quiz bowl team did quite well this season, first in the standings for most of the season. My DI team qualified for Globals last year, and I’ve gone to State three times in the five years I’ve been involved with the program. I have definite opinions and ways of supporting them. I can speak intelligently with anyone, either my age or adults. I can take care of kids. I walk my dog and clean the kitchen when I’m supposed to. My teachers like me. I go to church and I’m active in my youth group. I’m trustworthy, and I don’t swear. I’m honest. I do my work. I’m basically kind. I’m generous. I don’t eat meat. I don’t listen to profane music. I help other people whenever I can. I’m not racist, sexist, or otherwise judgmental. Or rather, I judge people on what they say and do, not what they believe or what they look like.

Okay, I’m feeling reassured. I am a wonderful person! Go me! I can do anything I set my mind and my heart to. People love me, and I love me. I’m a good person.


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