9.15.2004

Why do I do these things to myself? I'm not superwoman, no matter how much I might like to be. I can't do everything, I just can't. I don't have time to so much as sit down. I'm writing this post during my sci fi/fantasy class. Why do I think that I can handle a very advanced course schedule as well as all my extra curriculars as well as eating and sleeping? I can barely fit in everything I have to do, and I have no time whatsoever to do what I want to do. I'm getting irritable and easily frustrated and not getting anywhere near enough sleep. I'm already behind in my studies and it's only like the second week of school. This was my schedule yesterday:

Leave school early (knowing I'll have to make up all the homework for the class I missed). Drive to (city I take my English class in. Know that the drive usually takes 35 min, but has been recently taking 55 min because of construction).
Go to my class. Sit for two hours of intensive class. Hurry to where my dad picks me up. Drive home, stopping on the way for food (that is subsequently spilled on my white blouse) because I won't have time to eat at home. Go straight from class to band, not even stopping at home. March for three hours. Be very frustrated because the people that need to be there most aren't there, and many of the people who are there just aren't good enough. Make mistakes because I'm frustrated. Let mistakes frustrate me more. (And right in front of thatoneguy too, but that's another story) Come home at about nine fifteen. Do my history. finish near midnight. Go to bed. Get up at six thirty...

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I really like my PALs class. PALs, or Peer Assisting Listeners, is about learning to communicate and listen so we can later help other students. In doing that though, we spend a lot of time listening to each other. I think everyone needs a few minutes where they have the attention of their classmates and they can talk about their day, and we do that every single class period in PALs. It's so refreshing, and really rejuvenates me.

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I'm listening to: Coldplay, Don't Panic (<33333 Coldplay)(but I am panicing)

PS- can you see my background image? Of the stars? It's not showing up on my computer, but my computer is stupid sometimes, so I just wanted to see if something was wrong. ~me~ at 10:10 AM
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