11.26.2004

I ate so much yesterday! Go me! And, I'm hungry again! Maybe I can start gaining some of that weight back! I really think I'm slowly-slowly-spiraling out of my depression. Some days are giant steps backwards, but I've had quite a few little steps forward in the last few days. And that's such a freaking relief. I'm not meant to be unhappy, I don't think. I'm generally such a happy person that this funk I've been in has not only lead to usual depression symptoms -- losing weight because I didn't feel like eating, losing interest in things I used to like but didn't feel like anymore, losing time by just moping around the house instead of doing things with my friends -- but it's terrified me. I'm not using to feeling bad and doing poorly, and I honestly had no idea how to deal with it. Not that I do now, but I think that so long as no more bad stuff hits me, I'll be able to cut through the cobwebs with my sword of laughter and not be caught by the Shelob of depression on my tail. (Of course, the last time I thought I was almost out, my world fell apart one more time, so *knocks on wood*)

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