11.09.2004

Ok, my slightly cryptic post day before yesterday was for my xanga, not for here. Here I can be slightly more personal, because all my real life friends don't read this (except Anna, but she knows anyway, so). Anyway, I broke up with my boyfriend that day. It was rough, but not as rough as it might have been had we been going out for longer. We lasted for a grand total of about five days. Basically, I never should have said yes in the first place. I liked him a lot, but as a friend and really not anything more. I think things will be more comfortable now, because he seems all right with it, and personally I was extremely relieved once it was over. From like, the second day onward, the whole relationship just depressed me because I knew it wasn't going to work and I had to break up with him. And I do like him, and I hate hurting people, especially people I like. My main problem was that I'm basically a floater. I float from table to table, from group of friends to group of friends. And he followed me everywhere. I did like him, yes, but I didn't want to spend every second of every day with him. But then, I started thinking about it, and I realized I just didn't want to be in the relationship and there was nothing he or I could do about that, so I should break up sooner rather than later, and not lead him on and make him think I felt differently than I did. *sigh*. Well, at least it's over now, and I've learned from it. And I think we're still friends, so that's good. But still. It was rough.

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I'm listening to: Nothing at the moment, actually. But I do have a question -- what are songs that make you happy? Songs with themes of joy and hope and success and happiness? Let me know in comments, please. I've been kind of down lately, for that and other reasons, and I want a CD to cheer me up. ~me~ at 8:45 PM
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